Happy Thanksgiving! We are heading to Newbury Park today for some good Burmese food. Aside from that, we just got back from Big Bear last weekend. We wanted to have a weekend getaway from all the stress, worry, and work. It was pretty cold up there at night, and we spent the days in. We watched movies on a projector in our room, and I even got a special surprise: a Flash movie by my love with a second proposal (this time with THE ring). It is so pretty and sparkly!
Just a couple of days ago, I had a major panic attack that is probably normal for new mothers-to-be. I have been overcome by worry. All I think about every single minute is how to find the best care, where we are going to live, how we are going to afford all of these surgeries, how do I even take care of a child, how do I care for one who is fragile, am I ready for labor, on and on and on. It all came down on me in one swoop. I don’t seem to have time to prepare myself for this as I work in an office everyday. How do I make phone calls to doctors while I’m at work? How do I make time to do my prenatal yoga when I’m tired when I get home? All of these things I worry about and we have 16 weeks left! I do guess this is common, and I know I need to find a support group to communicate with. I think some of my friends who have kids don’t quite understand what we’re going through as much as parents who have gone through this situation. But we do appreciate and need all the support from our friends and family since they know us best.
Anyway, we are off to eat. Happy Thanksgiving!