Thursday, November 23, 2006

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving! We are heading to Newbury Park today for some good Burmese food. Aside from that, we just got back from Big Bear last weekend. We wanted to have a weekend getaway from all the stress, worry, and work. It was pretty cold up there at night, and we spent the days in. We watched movies on a projector in our room, and I even got a special surprise: a Flash movie by my love with a second proposal (this time with THE ring). It is so pretty and sparkly!

Just a couple of days ago, I had a major panic attack that is probably normal for new mothers-to-be. I have been overcome by worry. All I think about every single minute is how to find the best care, where we are going to live, how we are going to afford all of these surgeries, how do I even take care of a child, how do I care for one who is fragile, am I ready for labor, on and on and on. It all came down on me in one swoop. I don’t seem to have time to prepare myself for this as I work in an office everyday. How do I make phone calls to doctors while I’m at work? How do I make time to do my prenatal yoga when I’m tired when I get home? All of these things I worry about and we have 16 weeks left! I do guess this is common, and I know I need to find a support group to communicate with. I think some of my friends who have kids don’t quite understand what we’re going through as much as parents who have gone through this situation. But we do appreciate and need all the support from our friends and family since they know us best.

Anyway, we are off to eat. Happy Thanksgiving!

Friday, November 17, 2006

We're Already Half Way

Congratulations, we’re pregnant! We are already at week 23, and time is going by fast. I always thought I would keep track of every moment of our pregnancy, but working full-time (and feeling exhausted) has kept me occupied.

The past several months have been a whirlwind of physical and emotional changes. I still have morning sickness, my back aches often, fatigue is endless, and my boss says I waddle. We have a human being to care for, one who is completely dependent on us for anything and everything. We’ve learned the responsibilities of providing our son the best love and care our hearts are capable of.

After taking a simple screening test five weeks ago, our son has been diagnosed with a congenital heart defect called pulmonary atresia. This means a pulmonary valve in his right ventricle was not fully developed and blood and oxygen cannot flow to the lungs. He is safe in the womb right now, but when he’s born, he’s going to have some heart trouble. This situation requires immediate surgery within that first week of life, and most likely two more surgeries as a toddler.

We take this pregnancy day by day. We do the best we can to find amazing doctors and surgeons to take care of our son. We smile everyday knowing this is fixable and we are lucky to have such a special child. Surrounding him are so many family and friends who care for him, pray for him, hope for him, and love him.